…But only for awhile. I took a break from really actively doing anything. I was finding so many sources and becoming overwhelmed in researching, reading, and trying to be the best self-taught and full rounded web developer/freelancer/blogger/entrepreneur to ever hit the market.
It (really, I) put a lot of pressure on myself to not only learn these skills, but to showcase it, document it in the blog and become this hirable tech/design person I envisioned in my head. The stress was getting to me. I wasn’t hitting these self-imposed milestones and it stopped being about wanting to code and switch careers and instead became about being what the blogs and the forums dictated I should do as a self-taught developer. I couldn’t live up to this proverbial list and I took a step back.
I knew I didn’t want to quit, but I needed to do what worked for me. I’ve been itching to code and learn this whole time I had been away, and that let me know I really REALLY do love web development and design, but I have to go about things my way, and at my pace and really figure out what I want at this point, based on the time I’ve invested into this learning project.
I look back and see that my blog is three years old, has gone through two previous renditions: wordpress.com and LipstickAndCode.com and here we are at hackingmy.life . I stopped and asked myself what did I want. I’ve always wanted to work in tech, but am hesitant because it’s a field I’ve never worked in and though I know a little of everything, I wish I knew something really well in order to jump in and work.
It’s important to me to understand things from the bottom, to understand how the little intricacies of how design and technology work in a real work environment. Yes, I can learn this as a “full-fledged” designer, but having skills and knowing how to do things, is not the same way as applying the things you learned into day-to-day tasks and I’m not afraid of “starting from the bottom”. I’ve changed fields before (from knitting to banking to construction) , and though it’s not as hard as most people think it is, you have to be aware that there will be moments where you’ll feel like a small fish in a big pond. I’m okay with that. What I couldn’t wrap my head around is how everyone in tech is saying there’s a small barrier of entry, and I believe that, but I am not going to sit here and think I’m going to land a job making $90k as a front-end web developer with just what I know.
I don’t mind starting at Square One and paying my dues, and that’s what I need to focus on: working on my skills while building things and working through FreeCodeCamp’s Front End Developer section, get the certification, blog about it, and see what happens. Just the basics, none of the sprinkles.